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I have a new gym!~ so first step towards accomplishing my to-do list is done...Yay...

Back to to-do lists

Someone once told me (could be a famous person) that a  messy room would lead to a messy life... I believe that there is some truth in this sentence... MaybE?

So, in the hopes of sorting out my life a bit, I cleaned my "office"...(a bit)

I used to make and remake lists of what I wanted to do in life...it never really got me anywhere, but it sure relaxed me to see them written down on paper. Oh and something else that relaxes me as I find out is washing dishes... Maybe it has to do with the sound of water?

Here is a current list...

What I want to do, learn, be....

-read more 

-dance more 

-write more (OR WRITE!!! seriously!! what is wrong with you)

-Learn photoshop well

-Create a photography portfolio

-Make some money (teaching, writing, bar...)

- travel to at least one more location before end of May

-find a more steady writing job in a magazine.. turkey, us, ba...?

-work out!!

-speak better spanish... 

In limbo

there is a lack of satisfaction of an accomplishment.. Everything feels incomplete... 

my screen keeps freezing and I push the restart key.. over and over... i lose my changes in the process and start over.. as you start over to the same thing, it wears you out.. I feel worn out.  

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when does something new gets old? 

is something old ever exciting or desirable?

is something new ever comforting and genuine?

the moment right before something new becomes something old... is that moment ideal?

i want something in between... as exciting as new, as genuine as old...maybe not as shiny and desirable but comfortable and meaningful. 

all shoes are pretty when first bought... they hurt your feet a bit initially... soon you get more comfortable in them and wear them everywhere... as they get worn out you consider other shoes and soon they get replaced by new ones that will go through the same cycle...

there is a feeling.... the weight of a heavy coat 

couple words...

i feel like i haven't dropped words on a paper for longer than ever. It bugs me but i still believe everything happens for a reason... the words are in me somewhere waiting to come out at the perfect time..-or maybe the most appropriate time-

i have been preoccupied with my lovely visitors... and maybe was focused more on having good time, seizing the day -hence partying and not thinking- for a while... and it was great. slowly, with the same questions coming from right and left; i am getting into the future-worry again... cities to live in, jobs to do, people to have around... life of a city-hopper is not as easy as it sounds. especially when money is an issue. and especially when your heart is distributed in pieces to three different continents.

Trip to Mendoza

a fun 3day trip:

Lots of wine, a tent without comfortable mattress, bicyle winery tour, winning at Bingo in the first class bus, camping site, asado, election of the wine queen, absinth....

March 5

=)....=)...

March 4th

Gizem is getting married!!! I cannot believe it... I woke up with this news and still am trying to process it... congratulations my darling... I wish you all the happiness in the world!!!!

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I went to my first Moda Photography class last night in San Telmo...Mariana, the teacher, is an amazing photographer who went to school in NY. 

She has her own studio with great equipment. I loved the class. It was suppose to be for 2 hours but we ended up working for 3.5. There was a model... a girl who was around 15-16 years old, with long blond wavy hair and a waist so tiny that I could wrap one hand around it. We mostly worked with her and learned "low-key" and "high-key" shots... We spent some time working with the lights and angles. I wish my spanish was better which would have helped with my directions to the model and understanding more about the instructions in the class... Oh well...Mariana showed us some photos of famous fashion photographers and then we analyzed some of the pictures we took... It is only me and an other girl in class... So it is almost a private class. This was the first of 5 classes... exciting.

on a separate note... it has been raining continuously here... I have been mostly watching it from indoors...

tonight... movie =)

back in town

I recently moved to my new house on Loyola and Thames.... I love it!

However life crisis is catching up with me... not having a real job, money or a way of getting it makes me nervous and depressed...  

it rained yesterday all day... what a great reflection of my soul. 

Irina and I will take a class from Sebastian Arce in an hour... that should be nice... or nerve-breaking depending on the people attending the workshop...